Wornout Passion

Well, I haven’t posted anything for a pretty long time…and I don’t want that to happen again, but with school starting and work continuing I know it will happen, but I am going to do my best to avoid it! My passion has been pretty low lately and it isn’t a very good feeling. I wish my passion was like the passion one builds when going to camp. That amazing fire for the Lord that builds up inside and you can’t do anything to contain it.

I have been constantly busy, by choice, and enjoying every second of it! Until…I realize none of that time was 100% focused on God. The God who created me, the God who loves me, the God who holds my hand and comforts me. And I know He still loves me even though I pushed Him to the side. It's hard to see what your doing until you step back, take a breath, and take a second to think about your day.

I got to thinkin what an amazing God He is to love me through anything, to always be there for me, and to always let me make my decisions, though sometimes I wish He wouldn’t. I think that is truly what makes Him an amazing God though, to give us free choice to come to Him. He meets us half way, He isn’t going to force us into anything, but He wants us to want Him. He wants us to grab onto the arms open wide. I love that about Him so much! What an amazing God He is, full of compassion to be there for us no matter what, He loves on us with unconditional love that only He can love with, and He understands EVERYTHING. He has truly made a point to be a trustworthy Father who can understand. The song “How He loves us” is a perfect example of how I feel. “…and I realized just how beautiful you are and how great your affections are for me. And oh, how he loves us. How he loves…We are His portion and He is our prize drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes. If grace is an ocean were all sinking. So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss and my heart turns violently inside of my chest and I don’t have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way He loves us.” I love how God speaks through songs, nature, or other people. He is my true Father who I can always go to even when I have those regrets I wish I could make disappear.

I encourage you to make some time, even if it’s only ten minutes out of your day to spend with God. He put in so much more time for you and here we are giving Him pretty much a second of our day. Make it count, live for Him because He died for you.